Life During the Pandemic With Anxiety and Depression
July 14, 2020•252 words
Every day in the pandemic is the same, and all of them feel like this:
08:00 - Wake up freezing, even though I'm buried under sheets, cuddling Kaladin in a 76 degree apartment
08:30 - Ignore the constant body aches and pains by planning my day or snoozing
09:00 - Hot shower to relax my tense muscles, most likely avoiding a panic attack in the shower
10:00 - Existential Dread
11:00 - Despair upon hearing new record numbers of cases in whatever fresh hell was birthed with today
12:00 - Put food in my mouth so I don't die
13:00 - Existential Dread
14:00 - Should I quit everything and be homeless on the street to prove how brutal capitalism is?
15:00 - Roll out my aching muscles with the 4+ different devices I've collected to keep me sane
16:00 - ANXIETY
17:00 - Long walk with Kaladin, listening to podcasts or audiobooks to keep me distracted
18:00 - More food in my mouth so I can keep living and suffering
19:00 - Messaging friends and family and not mentioning the overwhelming loneliness and despair
20:00 - Books, Netflix, reading technical documentation, working on side projects, video games
21:00 - More books, Netflix, reading technical documentation, working on side projects, video games
22:00 - More books, Netflix, reading technical documentation, working on side projects, video games
23:00 - Lay in bed trying to think of anything but what I'm thinking of
24:00 - Maybe I'll be asleep by then, but probably not